Chapter 2
Love, Yoh whenever I think of it my head starts spinning, when I hear someone mention it, I get goosebumps from head to toe. These goosebumps can either be the good kind or mostly the bad kind followed by shivers and sadness.
Most of my life I have loved one man in my life. I have loved this man with everything I had. Well, I don't have much, actually I have nothing to my name but still I have loved him to the best of my ability. Given another chance, would I love him again, hell NO, but knowing my stupid heart I would do it again.
When I first met this man, I didn't even notice him, I mean my life was set on other things other than men. A year went by and before I knew it three whole years had passed me by without even taking a second glance at him. Up to today I really do not know how I started noticing him. I think it all started with a simple greeting, then it moved to talking about the weather and all of a sudden a lingering conversation here and there. I started to see and feel excited for his greetings. My eyes would wonder around in places looking for his face or even his back. What was really exciting about this, is that I knew that he was also noticing me, because whenever our eyes collided they had this deep dark shade calling to me, and all I wanted was to sink in them.
When I started noticing him, all I could see in my mind was red. I knew entertaining him was not an option because I am no fire fighter. Unconsciously I knew that he was the kind of danger I shouldn't play around because he would burn me to ashes and blow me into the ocean until there is no evidence that I once existed. I was right to think this, but knowing me ; I feed, breath, live and thrive in bad decisions. Plus mama, never raised a coward who runs away from a challenge especially if it comes wrapped in a tall, dark, muscular and chiseled fine man.
This man awakened feelings in me, that I never thought I had. My biggest weakness in life is that, I move at the speed of lightning. Before he even opened his mouth to ask me out, I was already planning on which venue and which cake to buy for our wedding. If only I knew then, I should have looked down when he greeted me, I shouldn't have noticed him when he was passing by and I shouldn't have looked and searched for him in a crowded room.
